Hello guys. Today was a fairly good day, save for th fact that my right leg's muscle cramped on me, um, it was freezing during PE, & yeah, 33. yes. okay... school. i finally decided to change th bag i was using because tht one was too flimsy. like. it looked like a potato without a backing. yup. so i changed to my sister's grey bag. oh. & thn school. Val came. finally. yup. um. thn Denise went with me up to class to put th jumble sale stuff. um. thn waiting&waiting. waited for no one in particular. thn went IBC. okay, so assembly & all tht crap. class. trying to sleep (again). yes, i know i'm so lazy. um. thn... some teacher came in & told us to keep our voice down low because th p4/p5 still having exam. no effect. as soon as she left everyone started making noise again. haha. someone was imitating th girls whn they were playing snap... she sounded like a strangled chicken. oh well. thn PE. yup. we (Denise, Rochelle, Daphne, Adeline) didn't want to play captains' ball, so we volleyballed. it was fun~ but in th hall yeah, it was freezing. seriously, & i was like whining about wanting to go to th parade square because there was sun there. aw. so... class. mucked around thn recess. yup. i burned my finger on jes's egg. seriously. it was damn hot. so... thn class and play. play like siao. thn we(rochelle & me) went toilet (to slack), but we went opposite because CDD also want to go, but she confirm go our class tht side derh. she damn weird luhh. um. thn playing with YKY. running about until i got muscle cramp. yeah. thn back to class. playing i forgot wht. yup. thn lina period... argh, she was doing HGM. & shawn & i were like 'AHHHHHHHAHHHHHHHHHAHHHHHHHHHAHHHHHHH. NOOOO. URGHHHHURGHHHHURGHHHHH...' siao. thn she did 4 ke. thn play again. siao, it was crazy. i kept unfastening th velcro fr her shoes. & she kept pulling my shoelaces. okayokay. i think i've said enough. bcos i have tuition again. siao, last night we watched th search for th next PCD. it was funny. so many of thm sick... thn whn th show ended, my mum was like 'okay, goodnite, shoo.' & i said 'i'm wounded...' with a pained look on my face. & she was like 'why?' & i said 'you chased me away...' hahaha. tht was hilarious. okayokay. if i want to reply my tags i'm gonna stop at th details & continue to th next segment.






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Dear 33,

i saw you today, you didnt even have th decency to say hi. today, i heard th song 'my happy ending' playing on my friend's handphone. and i didn't ask him to play it, he played it of his own accord. you haven't told me, was tht mistake on purpose? do you resent me for not replying you? do you resent me for not being able to help you? why can't we just patch this up? why do you walk away everytime you see me? why are you not able to look into my eyes? why don't you look straight into my eyes and tell me the truth instead of walking away and leaving me with so many unanswered questions? why are you sending me these mixed signals? why can't you come out and say it straight? why do you make me sit in one corner thinking about th mixed signals you send me? why do you do this to me? i really don't know what i should do anymore, i really don't know who you are anymore. it really hurts me to see you do that. it really hurts me when you walk away, why dont' you just tell me the truth? i'm really tired of this, i have no more energy. i think of that moment that i saw you with 12 and 17 everytime i close my eyes. i think of that moment everytime i see you. why don't you just end my misery? why don't you help me overcome this by telling me whether it was on purpose? why do you avoid me? i miss those times we had together, when we were so innocent. why did you do it? why do you act so awkwardly around me now? why do you leave me with all these whys? why? please, call me and explain, because i can't take anymore of this mental torture... if not just don't walk away from me, stay with me and tell me why you are acting this way, why you did that with them. just tell me. i can't stand not knowing anymore, just tell me. i'm trying to release all these pent-up feelings, i just want to be free from this matter, because i know that we're friends. but we're not friends if you keep walking away from me. we're not friends if you keep pushing me away. you're making me break down, you're making me tired and weak, i'm so tired, i want to cry, i want to fade away, i just want to know tht you weren't lying. i'm begging you, just tell me, i'm so tired... just tell me... this isn't at all like you, i just want to go back to how we were in the past... carefree, innocent and all... i can't let these pent-up feelings take over my life... just tell me... please.

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okay, haha. i finally downloaded itunes. i got pissed with WMP. it is irritating. seriously. i'm like 'ARGHHHH.' everytime i use it. ZOMG. 0.0 my bro is dancing... dancing on th para-para thingy... O.O
okay.
byes!
DAPHNE. Back to Top.


and finally, Daphne replies to her tags

Janelle: heyy... urgh, 33 is a guy... and... *sighs* i can't not care... i mean, what he did and all... plus th fact that he is avoiding me... it hurts. alot... *sighs* i just want to know what happened and all. and what he did... well, was just a mistake... and tht he hadn't been lying to me all this while... it hurts seriously....... i don't know what to do anymore...
Vanessa: thanks for th post. it really cheered me up, at least until i remembered. but still, thanks alot. why is it we're all so sad... *sighs*
Maxine: you've got it. oh yeah, and i gotta relink you...
KY: like... yo?
char: okay, maybe i sounded a bit harsh and all, but still i should say sorry too. i shouldn't have said it in that manner, should i? i was feeling angry and sad at that time, but still it didn't give me a reason to be rude to you, or anyone, for that matter, so, sorry. um. i didn't know what it stood for, so i just took my parents' answer. yeah... oh. and do i actually know you?
wendi: ohh... i don't want to do alr can? i want to quit liao... because i feel so out-of-place around you four... umm... yeah...

PS: Daphne really hates her tuition teacher now...