i thought this was what i wanted.

wasn't it?
it's cold everywhere i go. it's always at night where i think i lose the heart to feel human... it's always night where my true emotions come out. it's always night when i cry.
i'm just stoning everyday, putting on a stupid fake act so you don't find out. pretending i'm okay so you don't bother me. my brain is like blank, everyone just fades.

i'm sick of living this life of a lie.

it feels terrible...